It sounds so easy, doesn’t it? Go for what you really want, instead of just backing out on that you don’t want. Live your life on your own terms, break free from the chains and live authentically. It’s a dream for most of us, and it sounds so good in theory… But what if it just doesn’t happen? Could it be that you’re not really wanting it?
The truth is, most of us have been living life conditioned to not having a single clue as to what we really desire in life. Some of it comes down to the tribal mainstream I’ve been talking about earlier, but we have also been so disconnected from our inner nature that we really have no idea what we desire anymore. We have wishes, of course, and we have some pretty strong ideas about what we are supposed to be wanting or what we need to be doing in order to [insert verb+noun of choice]. But our true desires? Nope.
While I was driving home from university college today, I was listening to an audio from the lovely Tara Marino, where she was talking about this issue. And even though I consider myself a rather free and wild woman in this society, it suddenly dawned on me: All the things I’ve been trying to do, and not succeeding in doing, have not been out of my desires. I didn’t succeed in running a webshop, for instance, and it all comes down to one thing and one thing only: I never truly desired a positive outcome. I wished for it, and I knew it would be a smart thing to get myself an income… but it wasn’t a true desire of mine. I didn’t feel the strong sense of joy from the bottom of my heart when I thought about what it was going to be like when I reached my goals. In fact, I was only backing away from the things I didn’t want, doing what I thought I should be doing, most probably to satisfy someone else’s needs.
I thought I desired it at the time. But the truth is, my desire is so much greater than that.
I truly desire to create wonderful things, things that feel right when I release them into the world. Things that touch people. I have done that. I’m doing that.
I have such a strong desire to connect with like-minded people, and help co-create a wonderful new world based on integrity, creativity and passion. I have done that, too, and that’s what I aim to do now, with this blog and with my accounts in social media.
In this context, then… I have actually manifested exactly what I desired, and I’m doing more and more of it every passing day. It was never about the money or the acknowledgment for me. It was all about the creating and the connecting. And I have done that, in every single project that I up until now have deemed a failure.
I am, in fact, a huge success on my own terms! Who would have thought?
You see, manifestation is fueled by strong feelings. When you tap into these actual feelings – not thoughts or wishes, but feelings – then that is what helps you manifest the life that you truly want to live. If you back away from what you don’t want while feeling resentment for it, then that will only serve to manifest more of what you don’t want in your life.
But if you move towards something, with a true desire and the positive strong feelings that follows… then that’s when the magic happens. That’s when your desires manifest and come to life. And you really can’t make yourself feel something you don’t, for the sake of it being a smart thing to do. It just doesn’t work that way. You may have blocks, of course, that you will have to work through, but that’s for another blog post.
The question is: what do you actually desire?
The answer is simple: follow your bliss. If it makes your heart sing. If it makes you want to burst out in giggles and laughter. If it makes you feel like you’re on top of the world, wanting to fly. If the mere thought of it really lifts your spirit. Then that’s a desire.